Even though I've slept on it and had time to process this news, I'm still devastated. Probably even more than when I first heard it.
I know I haven't been around here much lately. Since my daughter was born it's been a roller coaster and I haven't had time to do much of anything, much less keep a blog. But I still always loved Sarah and fought for her whenever/however I could.
Of course I understand her reasons and this decision doesn't make me dislike her or what she stands for. No one could ever know what she had to go through, what her family had to go through, her marriage, etc., so I understand completely. It's just that her decision makes me feel less hopeful that someone like me, someone who is a political outsider, someone who has a family and a small business, could ever run for and win the presidency. I'm faced with the bleak options of the 2012 elections knowing no one could ever come close to her. More than that, I'm facing an America that's corrupt and being taken over by socialism and the strongest fighter in my corner has just bowed out.
But I guess that's what Sarah has been trying to tell us this summer. She can't be the leader of a movement. We need something bigger than a movement. We need to change our country from the bottom up. We need to be the movement, not follow a leader. I know she never wanted to be someone like Obama was in the 2008 election; someone who people could say they supported because it was "cool." She wanted to help restore our country and we all need to actually do it, not just follow a leader.
With this decision she's just showing again how human she is. She has feelings and loves her family just like the rest of us. She's not a power-hungry, win-at-all-costs political robot like most of the candidates out there. That's honorable. She has integrity. But I still wish she had made a run for it.